It has been nearly a year since my last post (which has been deleted because it is best forgotten). After going through the hardest time of my life, I feel I am finally ready to close the door on all that lies behind and strive ahead with the strength of Christ. Some of this is brought back to my mind because a good friend of mine is going through mirroring circumstances. She's the most beautiful girl I've ever known, and, I must confess, I hope to marry her one day. This has brought back a lot of memory and pain, but I gladly bear it for her sake--I would have it no other way. As a result, however, it is difficult for me to not worry over her problems. I love her with all that I am and I thank God for her every day, praying for her safety and peace. I still deeply fear no reciprocation in that... I don't know if I can get over that, though. Currently, however, this is irrelevant.
I think she know how I feel--and she does a great job of keeping in contact and (I think) providing me with enough hope to hold on, because she is not ready for a relationship yet (but I believe in, pray for, hope for, and strive to protect that possibility, to the glory of God.
And so for all those who may read this--Christian, non-Christian alike--I would ask that you pray for me. For my strength, guidance, endurance, perseverance, and love for this girl. For her comfort, peace, and mood, and perseverance in the struggle we're fighting through right now.
This I hope to be the conclusion of the Darkened Doorway: peace, love, marriage.
May the God of Peace bless you abundantly,
William E Crow
